I like order. My clothes hang in my closet a certain way. My socks are matched and folded in half and sorted by color. When I want a pair of scissors, I know where they are
I am an introvert. I love quiet and I think way too much. I can't tell you the last time I turned on the T.V. Oh wait, yes I can--to watch Obama's State of the Union Address. It was mostly interrupted by a local something or other. I get my news from the internet. I hate parties, too much noise and people. I love my time alone.
I have always voted Democrat. My father is a republican. I have no idea how my mother votes. I tend to be a conservative democrat, but my blood runs blue.
I am an addict. I took my first drink when I was 12 but didn't like it much. I got high on pot about the third time I tried it and was never clean again until the month before I turned 22. Drugs saved my life. They kept me anesthetized until I found the fellowship of Narcotics Anonymous. I just celebrated my 28th anniversary clean.
The best moments of my life were giving birth to my daughters. Taylor's birth was scary. I dilated very quickly and violently, then she got stuck. When I finally pushed her out, she had a cone head that went on forever. I was in love the second I heard her cry. I had to ask three times if she was a girl. I wanted a girl.
I knew Hayley was a girl. I had a private ultra sound done to confirm her sex at 18 weeks. That wasn't customarily done in 1992, but I wasn't going to argue over boys names with my (then) husband. I delivered Hayley by myself. I caught her with my feet as the nurse was tied to the wall via a corded phone, calling for help. Hayley was the best baby in the world.
I am a lesbian. I prefer the word gay to lesbian. I didn't want to be this way. I wanted to be "normal" and have 2.2 kids, marry a nice man, and live in the suburbs. I did that. It nearly killed me.
I went to my first ritual nursing eight-week old Hayley. I realized then and there why religion never worked for me. God is a woman. Duh. It hit me like a bucket of water. I am a witch, a Dianic witch and an Ordained one at that.
I have two horses, three dogs, four cats and a tank full of salt-water fish. They are a lot of work. The tank is neglected.
I smoked for 22 years. Well, more like 18 years over 22 years. I didn't smoke during my pregnancies or the immediate nine months after, or for other short spans of times when I quit seven different times. Eight was the charm. I never smoked a cigarette when I was using drugs. And I pay for that smoking to this day when I exercise.
I love photographs. I will always include at least one.
I have to get to the barn, the sun will set in an hour. My anxiety is rising anyway.